CHUBBY CHUBBY CHUBBY look whos getting CHUBBY....

ARGGHHH, me!!!!!!!

I dont even recognize myself... NAKED!

Its Awful,

5 years ago I married my amazing husband

and wore a size 8 dress on my 5 foot 10

140 pound figure

and after 2 children, wich caused me to gain almost 100 pounds during my pregnancy's

I AM STILL CHUBBY

it may not be so bad if our youngest wasnt turning 2 this summer

so I have NO excuse other than

I LOVE FOOD

And its not like the fast food, or greasy type food, because when it comes to meals, I make sure we all have nutricious healthy meals.... however

when the kids fall asleep

and Im having the munchie sensations.....

BAM out comes my secret stash of chips and/or chocolate

I know I irritate my husband with it too and not because he thinks I am fat ( although he wouldn't DARE say it if he did) but because I am always stating how much I hate seeing myself.... NAKED.

Soooooo

Today.... and I mean it

TODAY.....

I will stop eating the CRAP,

and procced with this diet in hopes that by the babies 2nd birthday this summer, I am back to a normal weight... I know my body has changed, I mean I did carry two HUMANS in it.... but I will be able to get on a scale, look down and be able to keep my eyes open long enough to let the number register in my brain, instead of jumping off as soon as I step on.

SOOOO I will not post my starting weight although I havnt reached the 180 mark yet but its still not nice, however when I get to a better size I will inform of my start, and the yucky... not so nice.... MEASURMENTS..NOOOOOOOOO!!!!!

I mean it was to the point where I applied to x-weighted, and then I realized, if I am willing to be on TV and have CANADA follow with this journey than maybe, I mean just maybe I can do it on my own for once, hmmm what an idea right?! So heres to wishful thinking, and hopefully skinny jeans, lol...... your truly, chubby mommy